To tell or Not to tell.

Of course, we told family.

Being a medico, I know that the first trimester is the riskiest - with the highest rate for miscarriages. However, I was also holding on to the fact that our God will bring His work to perfection and on the day that we found out, my journal header verse was : Psalm 139v 13-14 - 'I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made'.

Despite this, we felt that we would keep it hush and not tell our friends just yet.

Oh, ye of little faith!

However, I did have to make it known to the consultants at work.

Being in ED (or in the hospital environment for that matter!), I am currently exposed to many different things - the biggest one at the moment being the H1N1 virus. Pregnant women are considered in the 'high risk' category and should be isolated from a suspect case.

Plus - compared to the average Jane, I am at a potential for being exposed to higher levels of radiation; what with XRays and the likes.

If I may be honest with myself, I have bridled my excitement and joy, because I know the other side of the story. In every ED shift, I come across at least 1 patient with ?threatened miscarriage in their first trimester. I know the signs and symptoms, I know what is considered 'normal' and what is not.

Really - sometimes, being ignorant is a good thing.

Del has been faithful in praying and reminding me of what God can do to embrace, love, protect this little fetus. I know it in my mind that God has my life and my fetus' life in His hands and yet, the internal fight is so vivid at times, I just want to be able to have an ultrasound machine at home just to make sure!

I spoke to one of the other girls at church tonight who is 1 week ahead. She says that she is telling all who will listen as a sign of faith and proclaiming God's goodness - she said that she has a real 'peace' about it.

That is what I am praying for tonight, that I will soak myself in His words - that no matter what happens, I can still claim His goodness and faithfulness over our lives.

Its such a thrill to know that Baby Berry's gender is already determined!